GOOD(??) MORNING!!

Early mornings are anything but Good,
I thought to myself as I stepped out of the blanket and stood.
Mom's endless wake up calls I get,
Turn into howls when they are not met.
Threats like 'I'll never wake you up again',
When not responded to make her go insane.
Pulling off the blanket to get me out of bed,
'You are getting late' is whats always said.
'Put on the geyser', I shout hiding below,
Not letting anyone break my unending sleep's flow.
Five minutes more, thats all I need,
Give them to me and do your day's first good deed.
Ruchi joins in to make me feel like the world's coming to an end,
Just a little more peace, thats all I need you to lend.
As I lay in bed staring at the world around me,
I'm met with eyes which are quite scary.
'If you are up, then get out of bed',
They know I won't, still everyday its said.
'The green light in the geysers on',
Endlessly Ruchi shouts unless I'm gone.
Its just a geyser you need to understand,
It won't spark off, its from a good brand.
'You like always are going to be late',
Big deal!!The world can wait.

Don't be such a creep,
Just let me sleep.
Its important to me,
To sleep like I'm free.
Remember every morning when you shout to wake me up,
You too are 'me' when you ask for 5 more minutes and the morning tea cup.

Every morning I wonder what wrong I've done,
The only one happy in the morning I guess is the Sun.
'Just rise a little late',its a plea,
Please please please...do this for me!!

NO LIFE WITHOUT WIFE???!!

This is about my maid who like many others is a victim of domestic violence and much more.

I am your wife,
With you I've spent long years of my life,
Today when you show me the knife,
I wonder if this is what all my life I did strife.

When you throw me off the bed,
With anger your face turning red,
You don't even care if I've bled,
I wonder to this what has led.

As you push me down the stairs,
I really wonder if theres anyone who cares,
Not even those who've witnessed this unending nightmare,
As I was raped off my pride layer by layer.

I work all day to make ends meet,
In dust, chill or the scorching heat.
Why then this is the way you treat(me),
I wonder as I walk down the street.

You never loved me for what I was,
Sex, for marriage was the only cause.
I still slept with you everyday,
Even when I knew I was not your only prey.

Not once have I asked you Why,
Because I know you are going to lie.
Drinking is an excuse for you to beat me up.
I am filled with anguish like tea to the brim of the cup.

I earned for us to survive,
I don't know how I was so naive.
All that I earned was spent by you to drink,
Even before I could blink.

When I worked late to make a cut,
You didn't think twice before calling me a slut.
When I earned a little more,
You conveniently labelled me a whore.

I don't know behind closed doors what you did with your daughter,
When she walked out, her soul was slaughtered.
In you a father, she never had,
But I'd never imagined things could ever get so bad.

I'd promised myself that my daughters won't go through this ever,
I'd forgotten that a woman can promise never.
Their life is what their man will make it to be,
Whether its good, bad or ugly.

I don't know what went wrong and where,
I don't know why lifes not fair.
I don't know what brought us here,
I don't know why noone cares.

As I walked with a bruise on my eye,
There were questions all over, Not again!! Why??!
I wondered if again I should lie,
But this time I just began to cry.

I don't know whats keeping me here,
Its definitely not love, I wonder if its fear.
I show am strong,but you've ripped me apart,
You've not just broken, but have crushed my heart.

I am not going to ask you not to beat me,
I am not going to fall down on my knees,
I am not going to take away your priveldges of being a 'He',
All I'm going to do is set myself free.

LETS GO!

Lets go have a yumm shake,
Lets go have a niceee and chocolatttyyy cake,
Lets go where no ones fake,
Lets go where all that I want,thy let me take,
Lets go,a place like this we need to make.

Lets go where I can sleep as long as I like,
Lets go where I don't have to understand people's Psyche.
Lets go where no one goes on a strike,
Lets go where everyone rides a simple bike.

Lets go where there are the world's best cooks,
Lets go where I can take a year to read a book,
Lets go where no one cares how you look,
Lets go where no one asks you to return what you once took.

Lets go where you don't gain any weight,
Lets go where no one complains when you are late,
Lets go where theres nothing that I hate,
Lets go where you can celebrate regardless of the day or date.

Lets go where I don't have to think of what I do,
Lets go where there are lots of public women's loos,
Lets go where I can go out without wearing shoes,
Lets go where theres lotttss of chocolate mousse.

Lets go where I can stay wrapped up in blanket all day,
Lets go where people mean what they say,
Lets go where on the beach in the sun you can lay,
Lets go where you can shop without having to pay.

Lets go where my house overlooks the beautiful sea,
Lets go where I can always be me,
Lets go where it doesn't matter if you are a He or She,
Lets go where to good health, happiness is the only key.

Lets go where someone cooks me yummy breakfast,
Lets go where being fit is not always a must,
Lets go where its ok for a table to be covered in dust,
Lets go where people can easily trust.

Lets go where no one tells me whats right or wrong,
Lets go where someone can sing me my favourite songs.
Lets go where everything has lottss of cheese in it,
Lets go where regardless of what you eat, you always remain fit.

Lets go where there is no crime,
Lets go where I can have lots of ice cream soda with lime,
Lets go where no one cares about time,
Lets go where everything you say rhymes. ;-)

I DON'T...

I have always known that in 1984, the riots killed thousands of sikhs. But for me it was always just an event which happened once upon a time. I have always known and believed what happened was wrong and theres nothing that could justify it but it has always been about moving on. Today as I write I have a doubt in my head, why is this affecting me so much. Is it because thousands of people died or because thousands of 'sikhs'died. Is it about humainty or religion? On thinking a little more, I am convinced beyond doubt that when these riots were repeated in Gujarat years later, I was affected in the same way. Pictures of men being killed in 1984 or 2002 leave me equally numb. I now know I am sad not because sikhs died but because thousands of men lost their lives. I am sad because families were destroyed in a way they still haven't recovered. I am sad because it could have been my father or uncle. I am sad that it can be one of us even now. And I am sad that I also for a moment thought about 'religion'.



I don't know what to do, where to look, whom to ask.
I feel I am being pulled.
I try to keep myself away from religion but I feel I'm being drawn into it.
I am scared because I feel lonely and weak in my territory.
I don't know what to do,
I don't know where to go.
I don't know who to believe.

I am scared and disgusted with myself
I don't want to believe I need a movie to wake me up to reality
I don't want to step out of this reality.
I don't want to believe I'm becoming cold to everything,
I don't want to believe I don't want to accept it.
I don't know now if moving on is good or not.
I don't know where to go
I don't know whom to ask.
I don't know where to look.

I don't want to cry and feel sad about what happened,
I don't want to be indifferent towards those whom its saddened.
I don't want to feel that I should do something,
I don't want to realise that I can't.
I don't want people to think I'm sensitive,
I don't want them to think I'm cold.
I don't want people to know what i feel,
I don't want people not to know.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know who to ask.
I don't know where to go.

I don't want to believe what happened had to happen,
I don't want to believe it was their destiny.
I don't want to think everything is fair,
I don't want to believe everything is not.
I don't want to believe things are getting better now,
I don't want to believe they are getting worse.
I don't want to believe this is real,
I don't want to believe it happened.
I don't want to believe it won't happen again,
I don't want to believe it may.
I don't want to believe I was saved,
I don't want to believe I will be.
I don't want to believe I am going to forget,
I don't want to remember.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know where to look.
I don't know whom to ask.

I don't want to not know,
I don't want to know that I don't.
I don't want to believe You were asleep when it happened,
I don't want to believe it happened when you were awake.
I don't want to believe you won't protect me if it happens again,
I don't want to believe you will.
I don't want to believe you let it happen then,
I don't want to believe you won't this time.
I don't want to believe things will remain the same,
I don't want to believe they'll change.

I don't want to believe anyone now,
I don't want to believe I don't.
I don't know where to look,
I don't know whom to ask,
I don't know where to go,
I don't know who to believe.